assalamualaikum wa rahmatullahi wabarakatu brothers and sisters.
I've been into Islam for what i now realize to be almost three years. i say maybe last year i truly felt it in my heart. the more and more i went to the masjid the more clear it became to me. recently i sat in the masjid for 5 hours, something i never did before, and just sat and read Quran after a Nikah mashAllah.
also side question, when did i technically convert? i would like to know which of my sins have been absolved, because i did indeed do bad sins when i still knew of the existence of Deen, but i just failed to follow it. i was more caught up with a girlfriend, astaghfirAllah. i even tried to introduce Deen to her and I'd STILL sin, but I thought i was doing the right thing. i was wrong i know now.
now I'm also trying to marry ASAP. i do NOT want to commit zinah. at this point i know if i do it it is DEFINITELY going to the qabr with me. the family life interests me greatly, and i really really appreciate the modesty aspect to this religion. i have only work long pants and long sleeve shirts for the past 3 years alhamdulillah. i hope i can marry a sister who is also modest, but I'm not sure what sisters think about converts.
it really is incredible to be a convert guys. i used to be into drugs and alcohol, pornography, and some other sins I'm just humiliated with. i have seen myself change for the better so much, Deen is saving me.
i will definitely pray inshaAllah but also, where do i even begin? being married two to three years to me seems like it's what's going to happen but i wonder if i could have it earlier. i cannot wait to marry, especially after going to my first Nikah. but yes I'm only twenty, perhaps I'm disqualified from marriage for now.
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