So basically I was born in a Shia Muslim family. I have my doubts regarding the shia sect. I would say I'm more towards the Sunni side. What are some of you strong arguments for being Sunni.
Secondly my family is extremely dysfunctional. My parents have fought and abused each other throughout my life. As far as my mother attempting suicide. But then they start living like everything is ok. Starting with my father who was an extremely abusive man. I'm not going to say he was horrible. He worked very hard to get my family and his family to a high point in life. But he was always negative towards me. Hit me and insulted me when I made mistakes. Never had any communication with me. Told I could never be anything. I was never allowed to go out etc. He never supported me in anything at all.
My mother was similar. No physical affection growing up. Constant negative comments. It was more important for her to maintain social life. She was very nice outside but completely mean and rude at home. Together my parents had a tumultuous relationship.
My elder brother I were close. Growing up he started bullying me for my weight which I was already facing bullying for. He has been a complete failure and I think it's my fault that I said a few mean things to him. But in general he was never a big brother. After the marriage his i laws became his priority.
My sister and I had a love-hate relationship. But since we were grown up it was always abusive. She would hit me while being grown up.
So growing up in this situation made me further from Islam, family etc. I have high amounts to anger and hostility towards my parents and family. But it's got worst now because as a child one of my family members sexually assaulted me and my mother let it go and told me to get through it because he was her brothers son. This happened 5 years ago. I never knew what happened with me until now. Because of this fact I tried to confront the person who did it and he was very disrespectful and denied any responsibility. My mother still supported him.. and tried to protect him.
I just realized wow.. she didn't even care. It was more important for her to protect him. Just my father's response to it was mostly just let it go.
I have been addicted to marijuana. Living a life like a normal westerner. I was in a horrible relationship. But lately I felt like I needed to come back to Islam. But how do I approach this situation with my family? I mean my brother threw me under the bus in front of so many. I wish my family was normal and people actually grew up. Sad but true. So please if anyone could please advise in how to handle this. And also how should I handle dealing with that guy.
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