There’s a video of Nouman Ali titled “You’re not in love, You’re hormonal”. So in that videos he goes saying people nowadays are are not in love they just want to have fun and move on. But in my case I’ve fallen for this non Muslim girl and my life had turned upside down. Firstly I want to make it clear to you’ll, I do not want to get intimate with her or I don’t have those kind of dreams. But she had messed me up. Even while reading Quran today I wasn’t fully focused because she was constantly in my head. I haven’t been with a girl like her before and the feelings inside of me are just crushing me. I’ve cried for her just because I know I can’t have her and it was unfair on me to fall in love with somebody like her. I’m wasting my day longing for her to reply to my texts (clearing it out I don’t talk anything haram with her). I’m super introvert and I don’t like meeting people but it has blowed me that how could a person like me fall for someone with whom he wants to spend every minute of the day with. I never dreamed that I’d go through something like this ever. Now I’ve even prayed a few times and asked Allah that it was not fair for me to fall for her and all these feelings are killing me from inside. I’m depressed and lonely and am constantly asking Allah to make me move on but there’s still a part of me which asks for her to become mine and for me to turn into a guiding bridge for her to learn and eventually accept Islam. I don’t know what do. I know it’s no infatuation or crush because everyone who knows me well have judged and observed from my behaviour towards her that I’m head over heels for her. I don’t have any true Muslim friend or someone to talk to and get advise from. So all my non Muslim friends are giving me all these stories for these other lovers to confided into drugs and drinks to ease out the pain. And I can say this with guarantee that in 20 years of my life this has been the most difficult and enduring phase I’ve faced. I just want your help and suggestion. It’d be very grateful for someone who has experienced in this situation to give some advice. Thanks!
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