Salaam Everyone, After a bad past I recently starting practicing the religion I was born in of Islam Alhamdulillah . I have made some bad mistakes in my past , but I know that Allah forgives all sins inshallah. I used to never pray, did not fast, not wear hijab and work in a haram environment. I have started to pray as best I can, and plan to quit my job this week, but I still do not wear the hijab. I know it is not good to delay and inshallah I will wear it soon.
I have a question regarding repentance. I know it is not good to expose my sin, but I really need help. I have repented to Allah but I fear it is not accepted.
Basically I live in Canada and in order to graduate highschool you are required to have 40 hours of community service. I completed about 20 and then I don't know why I made such a stupid decision but I forged a signature of one of the people who run a Masjid and wrote that I volunteered at Masjid when I didn't. I used to help out there but never officially asked to volunteer there. I know what I did was something very very dumb , and mean and stupid. I regret it a lot. I feel so guilty and I know I should. It has been keeping me stressed knowing the punishment that I will have to face because of this lie.
I did not start practicing Islam as best I can until recently when I was already in college. And it is in college that I realized my sin after graduating highschool already and being accepted into college . I have not been caught for lying as I"m sure they just put it through and don't bother to check if the hours were legitimate or not. But what I did what was wrong and I feel guilty. I made a mistake that I regret very much. I did not deserve my highschool diploma I feel , actually I know. Its not right. I know it's in the past but I still feel guilt. I plan to actually volunteer at that Masjid during Ramadan Insha Allah and do many hours and help out a lot.
My question is , should I tell the school what I did? That I lied about the hours? Should I tell the Masjid that I used forged there signature and and said I volunteered when I didn't? Both the school and the Masjid don't know what I did. Or should I just leave it and repent to Allah , volunteer there as best I can and hope that my repentance is accepted. I know if I turn myself in I may face charges and my highschool diploma will be revoked thus causing me to have to leave college. I really don't know what I was thinking at that time. A simply weekend of Actually volunteering could have save me a lifetime of guilt!
My biggest fear is that all the money I make from my college diploma will be haram income because of the sin I did( as I wrongfully got my highschool diploma) ,and I will be doomed to hell. I'm terrified. Advice would be greatly appreciated Thanks all!
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